why do you still forgive me?

after everything i’ve put you through

you give me the ability to ruin you

but i don’t want to

what incursion has seized your mind?

what have i done to you?

your glazed eyes hold their own concept of truth

they hold me to this idolized form

that i cannot be rid of

this halo burns my head

these wings stress my shoulders

bringing the weight of your world

to me.

your burdens are mine to carry

yet i can be so cruel to you

i don’t choose not to

you let me lash out and let you know what this pain feels like

but it’s like i’m not even speaking

somehow the murmur of your prayers drown out my screams of fear

so i cannot convince you that this is no good

you miss what stands so clearly ahead

the path before us is nothing more than an illusion

please don’t make me take you there

once your eyes are opened

you’ll see that these white clothes are torn

my shadow will refuse to follow me anymore

you will have to walk through the valley alone

because i can’t go with you

once you enter the garden

you will know what i truly am

– tay naz